Baby Steps Towards Making Another Baby

Hubby and I had a discussion last night about when we want to have our next child. Now, I have read my share of infertility blogs and fully understand that sometimes when you want to have a baby doesn't exactly coincide with your body's ability to do so at the time you choose. Samantha wasn't exactly planned; We just stopped trying to not get pregnant. Make sense? "When it happens, it happens." We figured it would take awhile to get pregnant, but God had other plans (which was completely okay with us!). Ever since I was a young teen, I always had this fear that something was wrong with me and I would not be able to get pregnant. My fear was based on a) my long-life dreams of wanting my own children, and b) all the stories of infertile women I had heard or read about. Whether it was couples who had to try for three years, the woman with ovarian cancer, or the couple with multiple odds against them, it all scared me. So from about age 15 until 20 when I got pregnant, I had this horrible fear. I was surprised when I got pregnant, because earlier in my life when I did not let God be present, I had situations that could have resulted in a baby, but didn't. I now understand why; it was by the grace of God that I had my first pregnancy with my husband, my soulmate. God stood by my side even when I turned away from Him, and he protected me from instances that would have surely ruined my life. Then He gave Ryan and I the gift of a beautiful girl who would change both our lives forever. I am closer to God because of Samantha, my miracle. In her I discovered that all things are possible. Little by little, Ryan is starting to rely more on God as well.

I digress.

We started to discuss just how far apart we'd like the first and second child to be. Ryan said something that completely shocked me: "God will decide when it's time." or something to the effect. It surprised me because Ryan doesn't use "God" in any of his daily terminology and he certainly doesn't say something regarding religion that makes sense. It means he's making an effort towards knowing God as well as understanding how much He means in my life.

Of course, I told Ryan that in order for God to decide the timing of our newest arrival, we had to stop hindering it with birth control. "Oh yeah" Ryan said. He's so cute sometimes. He also mentioned that 18 months would be a good buffer between Samantha and her younger sibling. That would be great except for the fact that we'd have have to start trying in a month or two! I have to get off certain meds, get my back stronger, lose some weight, and then we can start trying.

Either way, I'd say there's a great possibility we'll be starting to try again late this year!

How Fast A Year Goes By...

It was about this time last year (plus or minus a day) that we moved into our townhome on base and began our lives in Maryland.

At this time, nobody but Ryan and I knew about the baby growing inside me. We had lost Giggs on April 12th when he jumped out of our truck at the Super 8 motel and ran off into the night. Ryan didn't really have a place in his new job, and was stuck in the admin office because nobody knew what to do with him.

So much has happened since those first days.

We now have a 7 month old beautiful baby girl that everyone loves.
Giggs was found on July 27th, 2008 while I was in WA at my baby shower. He was 9lbs of skin and bones, probably just days away from death. Today he is 17lbs and happy.
Ryan is doing police training, working on patrol, is LPO of his section and works a very long and confusing schedule.

Life was so simple back then, even though I thought it was horrible since we lost our kitty just after my favorite necklace had been stolen by the Mexican housekeeper at some stupid motel in Washington DC. I hated the East Coast; the weather, bugs, people, everything! But I only hated it because it was different.

Now, Maryland is my home. I love mostly everything about it. It's beautiful, the weather is nice minus the humidity, the people my husband work with are amazing, and not having the daily drizzle of Seattle rain is really nice too. I still hate the bugs, and most of the people are idiots, but there is so much to learn and discover. So much of America's history is here.

Yeah, I think the next two years will be just fine. :-)

The Unavoidable Easter Post

Since everyone is posting about Easter - what it means, what they did - I feel obligated to let the world wide net know just what I did on Easter.

Nothing.

Seriously! Nothing. Ryan was at work from 0400 to 1900 so it was just S and I. We didn't do much. I was planning on taking her out for a walk at the very least bit she was very tired for some reason and spent all day sleeping, only getting up to eat a few ounces. I watched TV and tried to play with S when she was awake but she wasn't interested. We did make a little outing to the store, though. She got a penguin that's a little bit like the blow-up clown that you can punch and he just comes right back up. Her penguin is little, makes noises, and is geared for teaching babies how to crawl, sit, walk, etc. She also got a chewy ducky, sleep sack, musical Easter bear, and I think that's it. She also got a bunch of nice things from GG, Grammy and G-Pa and Grandpa and Gramma.

Sooo, that's our exciting Easter!